So the title of this blog post is pretty out of whack!
No, I don't really care for dishes and I am not in love with it.
I'm actually in love with the idea of the dishes. Let me explain a bit more...
I'm a stay at home mom of 3 boys: 6, almost 4, and 10 months old.
In 2011 I bled out and almost died because of an ectopic pregnancy.
At the time I was in the military and so was my husband. We had our oldest son and wanted more kids. We were very devastated to learn that the baby wasn't going to make it. The baby was growing but if the pregnancy wasn't terminate it would probably rupture. This is a whole other blog post, but long story short, the baby continued to grow, and I now only have one functioning ovary. It was a very traumatic experience which led to me realizing that I truly wasn't doing what my heart wanted. I wanted to stay at home with our son. What if I couldn't have another?
When you sit and really think about it what did you want to be when you were little?
For me that was always a mom. I just wanted to stay with our son.
My mind was made up, and I was out of the military that same year.
Since then we've had two more little boys, and I have been a stay at home mom ever since.
Which finally leads me to the title of this post.
I was doing the dishes today and it's Monday. I didn't want to tackle them last night so there are TONS. Lots of dishes caked on with things we ate yesterday and I was complaining to myself.
On top of it all our dishwasher is not working. That means that I have to wash everything by hand. Poor little me right?! LOL! Then that's when I felt conviction on my heart. My mind fluttered to the thought: "Stop and be grateful you GET to be here at 11:30am washing these dishes woman!"
Recently I had a spiritual awakening and God impressed on me the verse: "Life and death is in the power of the tongue." Proverbs 18:21
I continued to wash dishes and thought about this verse.
I said to myself in my mind: "I am very grateful I'm here. Thank you God for the opportunity to watch my boys grow even in times when that means I'm washing dishes while I do so. Thank you God for full bellies and why there are so many dirty plates. Help me Lord to remember to praise you in all situations."
I'm sure there are some people reading this and rolling their eyes, but thing is one negative thought and mood turns into a downward spiral of staying in that place. The bible teaches us to put on our full armor of God time and time again. (Ephesians 6:10-20)
Part of that is the sword of truth and to pray in all kids of ways. So the next time I'm doing chores and complaining I pray for God to put conviction on my heart again, and remind me of the opportunity I have. The time to be with Him while I wash the dishes, fold the laundry, wash the toilets, and praise Him while I do it. It may not be what I want to be doing, but it's right where I asked to be with my babes.
Staying at home may not be what every mother wants but the point is I personally just needed to remember to be grateful.
God is good and He answers prayers all the time...
Thing is it's the way He knows is best for me, and not the way I imagine it to be exactly...lol.
Oh, and YES!
My kitchen is all clean and I feel much better after thinking about just being okay with being okay with right where God needs me to be.
Dishes are important too.
Change your mind and you can change your life.